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I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO TELL YOU....

Yesterday the wather was awesome in the morning. Which is good as I can only visit in the morning, I'm babysitting from 12:30.




It's acqua alta in venise those days. What is that ?.
Caused by :
A very high tide (usually during full moon).
Low atmospheric pressure.
A sirocco wind blowing up the shallow Adriatic, forcing water into the Venetian lagoon.

The lowest part of the city are flooded. Litteraly.

It's actually quite fun to see all that water in the streets, in the most famous squares, and sometimes you just can't help but wonder how you are going to go to the place you want without having your shoes flooded too.

Venice is really awesome for many different things. It's a very small city, you can go from one side to the other in 45 minutes. Also there is NO cars. You go anywhere by feet or using the vaporetto which are the Venice's bus. Except that thy are boats. You can also take the taxis ( boats too ) or the gondoles but the later are very slow while the taxi are very expensive.

Anyway, here are some pictures I took of the city !
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And also a few funny things because of the acqua alta
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And a few shops that amused me.
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And after this, I'm calling myself out of the drama~~

So, why am I only13 ?
First, I love all the boys, the 13 of them, I love everything they have done so far, I'm downloading every single files from clubbox, saving every pictures, reading every translations.Of course I'm biased aver one of them, of course they are many and so there's a few I'm not such an active fangirl on. But in the end I love them all, I'm proud of them, I want them to go far and achieve their dreams, be happy. I know some of you don't like a member, or just want one to go solo or else. Of course I wouldn't mind them to go solo if that's their decision, but I think some just don't have the strength and capicity for it. Or at least for a singing solo career. I want sapphire balloons to cover the sky in the world. Just like they do.

Then, come Henry and Zhou Mi. I really have nothing against them, the only think I could say is that I don't think they are good looking but that's really not a mean comment, it's just that they are not my type, but there's also Super Junior's members that I'm not attracted to. But that's not the only reason I love boys band guys. I'm not going to love every new single guy who arrive in the market because I want fresh guy meat. It's a whole lot more.
And really, for what I saw so far, yes, Henry is talented for Violin, Zhou Mi, I have no idea what he is good at, but I guess there's something... But that's not my problem, because even if they had wanted to add Yoochun or Park Hyo Shin in Super junior I would have say no. As talented and beautiful as they are. I want Super Junior to stay as they are. Because the bands I grew to love for the past 2 years are the bunch of 13 we have at the moment, because they experiences many things together, and all the alchemy will be over if they keep adding.

And also, you know what's happen if they add ? Some always have to leave as well. Before military service. Simple examples like the fact that it's already hard to fit 13 boys dancing in a stage like inki or m!ka; 15 or 20 ? They will have to split them in 2 bands all the time. But I want all of them on stage, the 13, as long as they can. Because Jungsoo cried on radio when he said that, since Kyuhyun was added, they were not a project band anymore. Because there's obvious signs, when you follow them closely as I do, that shows that they also want to stay 13. But that last point you can say i'm just seeing what I want to see, there's still everything else. Though, Jungsoo and Heenim would be, logicaly, the first to leave, but... I know Jungsoo is one of the, if not 'the' member with most fans, so wouldn't it be odd to cut him out, I don't know. SM mind is full of mysteries.

But, Zhou Mi and Henry may only be in sjm ! ... Well, yeah maybe they will and I really do hope they will. (Though, I still don't get why doing a china unit and adding especially new members in, if it's to have one of them who don't even speak chinese properly, but SM will always amuse me) .... But with all the protests, all the even organised by ELF... If they weren't planning to, why didn't they just said it officially ? "Zhou mi and Henry are only here for sjm" Easy, right ? .... Instead, they said that "Fans are mistaking, Super Junior has always been a project group and will always be" ... How comes their own leader didn't even know about this when he cried on radio, I don't know. But they said it, and... Isn't that pointing to the obvious ?

I really hope Henry And Zhou Mi could have their own band after sjm promo ends. Their own chinese band to keep on spreading the SM love all around the country. Or whatever they want to do; as long as they are not added in the main band. For all the reasons listed above, I don't see any interest in adding, I don't see what new that could bring to the band (Violon once in a song is cool, but they can't really have it in every single ones). I don't think this is being selfish, though you may think so. I know ELF can have been rude with Henry during the performances, but they never shouted "henry, go away !"... It has never been directed to him personally, and I know it's hard but I guess he made the choise, and Super Junior members knows their fans, I'm sure he knew before that it was going to be hard... It's sad, I know, but I think the blame on both pro henry and pro13 fans should go on SM and not on the other fans. Because SM were the ones wanting Henry to join, and I guess it was that or no career, so of course he said yes... And I'm sure everyone would have liked to have him in a proper band, without wank and drama every day because people don't think the same about the issue. It makes me sad that it has to be like that, when super junior is really the most crackish band around, and it's just not normal that they is has to be like this.

But instead of being "well we will see what happens" ELF and us are trying to act to prevent it. Maybe that's the french blood running in my body (because we all know french are kings for strike and rant) ... But I'm not one to just sits here and wait. If we don't want something to happen then we have to fight for it. Because the day Zhou Mi and Henry will be added to the band, then it will be too late to protest. It's before that we have to, to make SM understand our point and not do it. ELFs don't want to be lazy now to suddenly discover that members are added and other taken out, and that it's too late to protest, and then they will just have their eyes to cry, and theyr mouth to rant between fans... But since a member is officially announced in, then he won't leave until SM says so. It will be too late, he will be a 'super junior' member.



That is all. I'm not forcing anyone into my point of view, I'm just saying it. I hope it's not too long and that there's not too many grammar mistakes, and that I do not sound rude, because that's really not what I want. English isn't my native language and I'm not as fluent as some of you who are not native either. I may write things which sounds rude when I'm not planning to, just know that I really don't mean it like this here.
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Many things have happened in the past half a month; and following the boys for 5 weeks in Korea also made me meet people, talk about things, acknowledge others.
I heard many things about what I supposedly think or what I have supposedly done, and not all of it is true. I don't care if people don't like me, but if they don't then it should at least be for real facts, not because of rumors. So there's how I think:


The fact is, I don't have the time to check on my boys in Korea and my boys in China. I had to make a choice.
Which was easily done.

Supi have Korea, I know where to check stuff, I understand the language more, I went to Korea for 5 weeks. They also have Jungsoo. Big help, I have to confess. Ah, and Chinese videos are m-lq..

SJM have my boys, but they also have the drama in the fandom following them, and 2 members that I have been so-so about for a long time because more than just often hearing not so great things about them, I also just didn't want to be attached to them too much. Because then, it would be too hard to support the 13 as I wanted to. But 'not being attached' doesn't mean that I don't like them. I absolutely never hated Henry, or said anything bad about him. I did say something bad about Zhoumi once after seeing him at the hotel in Thailand, and I still don't really know why I wrote this.. I wanted to make a public entry to annoy the hell out of some people who hate me (and also see how much time they would need to find out that I had a new public entry. Answer = pretty quick, less than 12 hours) but I thought that the fact that I also posted the Zhoumi picture in the super Junior community along with my report, and just the fact that I took pictures of him, would show that I did care a bit.. I'm not a paparazzi taking pictures just for the sake of taking pictures. But yeah, i screwed up on that public entry, and I quickly realized it and deleted the post 24 hours after posting it.

But people didn't believed me anyway, even before that entry, when I was saying that I didn't hate them at all. I always said that even though I was only13, I didn't hate Zhoumi and Henry. People never believed me and crescendo even said once that I was "always repeating the same excuses". Sorry to tell you but it's not 'excuses'. It's fact. I know what I feel and I don't hate them.
But maybe you are confused. I can be friends with people without agreeing 100% with what they say. I think some people forgot that along the way.
But whatever what some people think~ To tell you the truth I never even heard of 99% of the people who supposedly hate me. I see them in hate memes posting non-anonymously, or on some links people give me. Well. lol, okay~

As I was talking about my mistakes, I'll also talk about the second one I made. And in my memory, I did 2 stupid things in this fandom: The Zhoumi entry, which was a real screw up, and the only5 icons post in the public community. I wasn't realizing at that time how fierce some people were. I was just thinking 'you don't agree, then just don't care about it' ...But it would have been too easy. People started hating me because it sounded like I wasn't treating Zhoumi and Henry as humans or something... Maybe that's how you saw it, but I'll just explain how I was seeing it, because it wasn't like this, and if it sounded like this, I apologize.

The pictures used for those icons were official pictures. And changing them to have only Hangeng, Siwon, Donghae, Ryeowook and Kyuhyun was just something to say 'the way it should have been' to SM, because for me, it was. Not because Henry and Zhoumi don't deserve to be recognized and to become famous, I really don't know anything about Zhoumi except his performance of the Lion King song (lol) but I know for Henry that he is talented. But I... It's selfish, and it's coming from fear. I don't mind them being in SJM because it's good for them and it's good for the boys in China to have other Chinese members but it comes from fear to maybe see them being added in the main band.
Ever since ELF started in September to chant and protest for the safety of the 13, SM never said anything. If they weren't planning to add Zhoumi and Henry, they could have just said so. No more drama, no more chants to edit out of every single performance.
But they didn't, the only thing they officially answered was "The fans misunderstood what we said, Super Junior never stopped being a project band". For me, that was clear enough, like they meant "We will add new members in the future". So when SJM started, as much as they could have said that they were only here for SJM, I was scared. Because SM does anything they want, and they don't care about what ELF thinks. They just do it. And the problem comes from them, and only from them. I know that Henry and Zhoumi don't decide why and where they go. And as far as I know, Henry said that he didn't want to join the main super Junior band..
But there we are, and as much as it doesn't seem that they will be added, I'm still quite scared, because it's SM, and they can do anything, and it will be too late to say anything when they will be added, it's now that we have to speak up. I'm French, the queen country of strikes, and I can tell you that's how things work. lol~

But anyway i know that seeing how things are now, I wouldn't do those icons again. (And for the record, I never blurred or edited any pictures~)

Now, with a talk I had with a friend for the past 2 days, I started wondering again.
Last time I 'checked my stand' (lol), it was when SJM debuted. I tried to think what I wanted, and I decided and that was it. I wasn't hating them, I was just going to not care that much about them. I didn't want to get attached. Not a crime.

But then again.. These days I've started to think again, and it's crazy to take so much time on an issue like this: fandom, a boyband. When we say it like that it sounds pretty stupid.


Jungsoo and Youngoon said it at the 1000day party. They are only13. Forever. And they will 'protect 13 members'... But that's not the only thing they said.
Jungsoo asked everyone to support SJM, and ALL the members. Youngoon cares about henry a lot, and I won't even speak of the Kyumi and the Ryeo-henry. lol.

And when I remember that, I can't help but wonder if I really 'supported SJM', and ...all his members. The fact that I tried to stay away from SJM added to the few mistakes I made... it made me feel that I didn't support them.
On one hand, should I listen and follow every of Jungsoo's words. Soon he will ask me to jump out of the window and I will do it ( and it will please a lot of people around here~ right ? Well I know, you would prefer me to have a more violent death, but that's a start. )


Okay, I'm getting lost here, let's get back on track.
The fact is that I can't make a 90° turn in a day just like that. I can't change the way I'm seeing things in a blink of an eye. And I don't know where it's going to lead me.
I don't want Henry and Zhoumi to be added in the main band, not them and not any other boy. I don't want them to become regular members. My Super Junior are 13.

But I want to acknowledge Zhoumi and Henry more than what I did in the past. I know they deserve more love. And i know my boys love them. And I think they can become lovable very easily.

But they will never be Super Junior regular members in my heart. Not even in the leader's heart if SM decide that they will.

There's someone who doesn't like me, who's friend with a friend of mine, who said something that I like:


My super Junior are 13, the super junior family is 15.

I guess I'm slowly changing my mind this way. And I just wanted to write it down for the past few weeks... It also helps me to think. and I wanted to appologise for the Zhoumi entry.
That's still only what I believe in, and I don't ask anyone to do the same, and I don't care what people think. This is just me, period~